Stress

Geeze, from these posts it probably seems like I'm in serious need of a psychiatrist and medication.

But whatever, I am super pissed off.. and stressed. As usual.

I have all this homework, and I wasted today with pointless shit.

And on top of that I have a mother who doesn't give a shit. I talk to her, she ignores what I say. And this isn't just typical teenage rambling. Literally, I had JUST told my mom something, and within the next 60 seconds she asked me a question that I had answered by what I said earlier. She claimed that she was too "busy". Oh.. ok.. guess what I say takes lower priority than basically everything else. "Oh, I just got home from shopping... lets go change clothes. What's that? My daughter is saying something? Oh, well I'll just act like I'm listening and then be an asshole by asking her questions that I would know the answer to if I would just listen."

Well.. maybe she didn't think that last part. But definitely the first part. All the fucking time. All the motherfucking time. Then I act OBVIOUSLY mad and she laughs it off like me being angry is no big deal. Then, now, she's like, "What? You're mad at me?"

I know what's coming next.. I'm gonna be all pissed. She's gonna be like "What did I do?!!??!" Then SHE's gonna be mad at ME for getting mad at her in the first place. Then, eventually she may mutter some insincere apology, and I'll realize it's pointless to stay mad at her as it is incredibly inconvenient for me and it will never change anything. Then a month or so later this shit will repeat itself.

Why can't old dogs learn new tricks? Why is she such an inconsiderate bitch?

Is it so hard to treat your ONLY daughter as if she IS your only daughter??

I wish this blog just.. transferred my thoughts and feelings to it.. I'm so pissed off atthe world and want to get it off my chest, but I never want to write it down in a rational manner.

Sigh.. I'm going to end up going batshit crazy.