People

I don't get it.. Ok I realize that my blogs haven't really been varied on topic, but most blogs aren't and I only post when I'm pissed at people so whatever.

First of all, I've got a pretty privileged life. I'm not rich as shit or anything but I live in a very nice neighborhood and away from most of the evil things that happen in the world. But every time I hear about something horrible–like how one girl plotted with her boyfriend to kill her mom so she could get money for a boob job–I start to feel really depressed and disgusted with society. I wonder why people can be so heartless.. and stupid. People are killing each other and themselves for ridiculous reasons.. Now I'm not one that's all like "all life is sacred!!" and shit.. but I don't think life should be treated so casually.. especially when I believe that this is all there is. I don't know.. I just can't comprehend it.. I would never kill someone.. I mean, maybe if they were trying to kill me.. but never like that!

Second, it's Thanksgiving, right? And Thanksgiving is a time for family, right? Well, I just can't believe that people don't change... ever. My brother has been the same cold-hearted bastard his whole life.. and every time I see him I hope that something will change.. but no.. the fact that my own brother can't be nice or even decent to me, and he's over 20, just goes to show that nobody changes, and we're all just gay.

Third, with my best friend gone, I only have two really close friends left, and one I simply hate. Maybe not hate, but I can't stand to be around him for long.. He's just changed.. and everything is just awful.

I feel alone and surrounded by assholes. Now what am I supposed to do?

I have to go eat turkey and awkwardly talk to some girl I barely know because my parents think we should be friends as we are "close" to the same age.