Geeze, from these posts it probably seems like I'm in serious need of a psychiatrist and medication.
But whatever, I am super pissed off.. and stressed. As usual.
I have all this homework, and I wasted today with pointless shit.
And on top of that I have a mother who doesn't give a shit. I talk to her, she ignores what I say. And this isn't just typical teenage rambling. Literally, I had JUST told my mom something, and within the next 60 seconds she asked me a question that I had answered by what I said earlier. She claimed that she was too "busy". Oh.. ok.. guess what I say takes lower priority than basically everything else. "Oh, I just got home from shopping... lets go change clothes. What's that? My daughter is saying something? Oh, well I'll just act like I'm listening and then be an asshole by asking her questions that I would know the answer to if I would just listen."
Well.. maybe she didn't think that last part. But definitely the first part. All the fucking time. All the motherfucking time. Then I act OBVIOUSLY mad and she laughs it off like me being angry is no big deal. Then, now, she's like, "What? You're mad at me?"
I know what's coming next.. I'm gonna be all pissed. She's gonna be like "What did I do?!!??!" Then SHE's gonna be mad at ME for getting mad at her in the first place. Then, eventually she may mutter some insincere apology, and I'll realize it's pointless to stay mad at her as it is incredibly inconvenient for me and it will never change anything. Then a month or so later this shit will repeat itself.
Why can't old dogs learn new tricks? Why is she such an inconsiderate bitch?
Is it so hard to treat your ONLY daughter as if she IS your only daughter??
I wish this blog just.. transferred my thoughts and feelings to it.. I'm so pissed off atthe world and want to get it off my chest, but I never want to write it down in a rational manner.
Sigh.. I'm going to end up going batshit crazy.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Pointless
Well, I've decided to write another post.
I've titled it "Pointless" because that is basically my theory of life. Everything has no essential 'point'. The obvious talk of an atheist. I mean, if the entire universe disappeared/got destroyed, who would be around to care? If nobody cares, then what's the point? And even if they do care, what's the point? So what if someone cares? In the grand, grand scheme of thing, there's no point to anything, let alone your individual measly problems.
But I've especially titled it so, not to rant on and on about how pointless everything is, but to focus on several pointless things affecting my pointless life.
1. This blog, in itself, is pointless not only for the above reasons, but because I'm just a dumb teenager who is currently listening to Nsync and thinking, "Ah the good old days." My opinion is so worthless and stupid, especially since I think it's so all-mighty. This, I guess, is just me repeating what I said in a previous post, but whatever. I'm part of the huge number of teenagers forming cynical theories on life and handing out my opinion like I'm some sort of wealth of knowledge gracing you with my presence. Yet, in reality, I'm some stupid teen who finds the idea of getting high a bit too exciting. I'd be more in my place write about my various sexual and drug-related escapades. But we both know the reason I'm not doing so is because I'm too uncool to have enough of these to write a blog about...
2. Anyways, the reason I was angered enough to write a blog post is because I'm appalled at the school system. I have a theory that, the higher you go up in the ladder of anything, the more retarded people become. Especially in the school system. The school system is flawed in way too many ways. For example, the heads up at the brilliant school boards decided to install new, expensive A/Cs in all schools that are louder and break more often than the old ones. Why? Because they hooked them up to a big computer that sets them all at one temperature. Why? Apparently, to save electricity. A "go green" policy. Now, being the liberal hippie that I am, I wouldn't mind this, and I would even support this, had the policy actually worked.
Instead, this makes the A/C impossible to regulate in the classroom without sending an email to headquarters to please turn the air off because our balls are the size of raisins and our shirts are going to get holes poked through them thanks to our nipples. Then this request needs to be "processed" and eventually your temperature will be adjusted. So, instead of doing this, most classes simply try to withstand the cold. Did I mention that this is in a city in which the temperature never goes lower than 60 degrees (even in the dead of winter) with high humidity?
Where my father works, it's so cold that employees have brought their own personal heaters to help them out. It's 90 degrees outside, 70% humidity, and they need heaters inside.
In what fucked up world does this make ANY sense??
Not only this, but the school board decided to turn off all the air conditioning on Monday morning. Why? Because there will be a cold front on Tuesday EVENING. Yep. So the entire school barely escaped heat stroke thanks to the stupid people up top.
What does this have to do with pointlessness? Nothing, I guess. School in general is pointless. The only thing I've learned from school is that life is complete and utter bullshit. Thanks, school.
I've titled it "Pointless" because that is basically my theory of life. Everything has no essential 'point'. The obvious talk of an atheist. I mean, if the entire universe disappeared/got destroyed, who would be around to care? If nobody cares, then what's the point? And even if they do care, what's the point? So what if someone cares? In the grand, grand scheme of thing, there's no point to anything, let alone your individual measly problems.
But I've especially titled it so, not to rant on and on about how pointless everything is, but to focus on several pointless things affecting my pointless life.
1. This blog, in itself, is pointless not only for the above reasons, but because I'm just a dumb teenager who is currently listening to Nsync and thinking, "Ah the good old days." My opinion is so worthless and stupid, especially since I think it's so all-mighty. This, I guess, is just me repeating what I said in a previous post, but whatever. I'm part of the huge number of teenagers forming cynical theories on life and handing out my opinion like I'm some sort of wealth of knowledge gracing you with my presence. Yet, in reality, I'm some stupid teen who finds the idea of getting high a bit too exciting. I'd be more in my place write about my various sexual and drug-related escapades. But we both know the reason I'm not doing so is because I'm too uncool to have enough of these to write a blog about...
2. Anyways, the reason I was angered enough to write a blog post is because I'm appalled at the school system. I have a theory that, the higher you go up in the ladder of anything, the more retarded people become. Especially in the school system. The school system is flawed in way too many ways. For example, the heads up at the brilliant school boards decided to install new, expensive A/Cs in all schools that are louder and break more often than the old ones. Why? Because they hooked them up to a big computer that sets them all at one temperature. Why? Apparently, to save electricity. A "go green" policy. Now, being the liberal hippie that I am, I wouldn't mind this, and I would even support this, had the policy actually worked.
Instead, this makes the A/C impossible to regulate in the classroom without sending an email to headquarters to please turn the air off because our balls are the size of raisins and our shirts are going to get holes poked through them thanks to our nipples. Then this request needs to be "processed" and eventually your temperature will be adjusted. So, instead of doing this, most classes simply try to withstand the cold. Did I mention that this is in a city in which the temperature never goes lower than 60 degrees (even in the dead of winter) with high humidity?
Where my father works, it's so cold that employees have brought their own personal heaters to help them out. It's 90 degrees outside, 70% humidity, and they need heaters inside.
In what fucked up world does this make ANY sense??
Not only this, but the school board decided to turn off all the air conditioning on Monday morning. Why? Because there will be a cold front on Tuesday EVENING. Yep. So the entire school barely escaped heat stroke thanks to the stupid people up top.
What does this have to do with pointlessness? Nothing, I guess. School in general is pointless. The only thing I've learned from school is that life is complete and utter bullshit. Thanks, school.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Stupid Questionnaire
Maybe it's the theme of my blog, but even a pointless one like this has some sort of human nature deep thought in it.. so here it is:
Ok.. let's face it, humans love to talk about themselves. People, even people who say they don't give a shit what others think, care about that stuff. Fact of life.. So even though I'll say I hate these things, I secretly really want to fill one out. Here goes!
Whats a fact about the last person you liked?
Well the last person I had a full on crush on (as opposed to just mild interest), that wasn't fictional was in 5th grade.. Fact about him? He had a weird last name.
Who was the last person you gave up on?
This is a vague question... Not really sure what that means... but let's just say that one person triggered me giving up on all people in general (as you may have noticed from a past emo post).
Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
Well few people are complete jerks.. but. . I don't think I've spoken to the jerkiest people I know today.
What did you do last night?
Your mom. But in all seriousness.. your mom.
Do you think relationships are even worth it?
If the alternative was practical (simply mating quickly like animals and then leaving), then no. However, we are part of the group of animals that has sex and raises the offspring.. so therefore, I do think relationships are "worth it" as they are programmed into our DNA.
If you could pack up and move would you?
Everyone can always pack up and move, and they all answer your question.. no. God.. these questions are stupid, maybe I should try another questionnaire.
Do your parents REALLY know you?
Who was this questionnaire written by? A 15-year-old emo kid?
Moreover, what do you define as "REALLY" knowing someone, lilemogurl15? My parents don't listen to me half the time and have no idea I've smoked pot twice and gotten drunk way more often than they know.. yet they raised me. Who is the "real" me? Is it who I perceive myself as or what others perceive me as? If it's who I perceive myself as, then nobody truly knows me. If it's what others perceive me as then they are a big part of the "others" who define who I am, and by definition, whatever they think of me is the "real" me.
When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Just because I don't remember doesn't mean I'm as emo as you.
What are you excited for?
On a small scale? Summer break or all the moments that are NOT what I'm not excited for and do not precede those moments closely either. Grand scale? Getting into my dream college, getting a dream job, getting married, accomplishing my purpose on the planet and helping out a little with the planet in the meantime.
Has anyone told you lately that they would always be there for you?
Hm.. I don't think anyone actually says that in real life unless they've been watching too many soap operas. (And don't try to make me emo by realizing the answer is no.. just because you're emo doesn't mean I have to be.)
What do you want right now?
To stop wasting my time answering stupid questionnaires like this and get working on the shitload of crap I have to do.
Are your parents divorced?
No, but I'm sure yours are, lilemogurl15.
Do you fall for people easily?
No.
Would you ever get a tattoo?
Probably not, as I'm smart. Not that tattoos are bad, but I know my taste would change and I would regret it.
What's your mood right now?
Irritation with a pinch of anxiety.
Did you enjoy your weekend?
It's still the weekend.. and no.
Last person you told a secret to?
Uh.. probably my friend.. whose name I do not wish to reveal.
Are you stubborn?
Shit yeah..
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
Is this a romance question or a general question? No, I have a family that I live with.. but yes, I don't have a boyfriend.
Are you listening to music right now?
Yeah. Aren't you going to ask me what song?
Who else is in the room with you?
Nobody I hope.. or else this questionnaire won't end up getting published... OMG!! A big red ant!!!
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
Jacket.. what a stupid question..
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Heaven? If such a thing existed..
How long can you go without your mobile phone?
Again, a stupid question.. I could go without it indefinitely as it is not required for me to live. However, it would inconvenience me if I didn't have it, so preferably for as short a time as possible.
Ever kissed someone else's girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope..
What's the worst time to say i love you?
When someone is having explosive diarrhea . .FUCK THE ANT'S ON MY DESK NOW.. or maybe when they're getting attacked by ants.. I don't know.. there's a lot of times when it would be bad.. Like when you're raping/killing them... well unless you're killing them and it's a tearful, movie-type scene...
Who was the last person in your room besides family?
Probably one of my friends..
What is one place you would love to visit right now?
Japan.. or if it's in general, as you didn't specify.. another planet or dimension or time.
Do you know anyone named Dan?
No... wtf..
Is there someone you know you should hate, but you can't?
Like.. hate hate? Like want them to die like Hitler? Or just regular ol' hate.. cuz if it's regular ol' hate.. then 2 out of 3 of my best friends.. and my parents..
Is there anyone you trust even though you shouldn't?
.. not really.. I generally don't trust people I know aren't trustworthy..
Are you afraid of falling in love?
No..
Have you had the chicken pox?
Yeah.. wtf.. is with these random questions.. in the middle of all these emo deep questions?
Are you a forgiving person?
I suppose.. in comparison to who? .. but in general.. .yeah i guess...
Are you talking to someone while doing this?
No.
Are you younger than 21?
Yeah, just like you, lilemogurl15.
Do you like winter?
I love what it does to my hair... not so much the whole.. coldness part..
How clean is your room?
Not very..
Do you have feelings for anyone?
OMFG.. yes.. I have feelings for you, lilemogurl15.. feelings of hatred.. yes! obviously I have feelings for people! I hate people, love people, am annoyed by people, etc. But, I'm sorry, lilemogurl15, I know I'm being harsh.. no, i'm not in love with anyone.
Is there anyone you need to tell something to?
wow, i take my last apology back.
Do you want to yell at the top of your lungs?
Not really.. that's more of an emo thing..
What do you think about people who get hair extensions?
dude.. wtf.. I've been trying to answer you seriously.. why don't you try to ask me serious questions?? I don't care about people with extensions!!
Are you named after a grandparent?
No!
Who's bed did you sleep in last?
Mine!
Do you like the color green?
It's ok!
How many hours did you sleep for last night?
like 8 or something..
Where was your default taken?
.. is this a fb question? if so.. at my house..
How do you feel about the last person that called you?
um... they're cool?
Are you someones first love?
Defining love in my way of defining it, no. Defining it in the stupid teenager way, yes.
Last place you smoked a cigarette?
I don't smoke... cigarettes...
Last time you received flowers?
like.. fuckin.. preschool. .. o wait no. .actually like last year or maybe the year before that.
Who were you with last Monday?
How the fuck should I know..
What are you doing tommorow?
Are you hitting on me?
Are you addicted to anything?
Stress.. or maybe it's addicted to me.. and any phases i am currently into.. such as watching some anime.. or playing some game.. or watching house..
Are you tired?
Yeah... ridiculously so..
What are you about to do?
Hopefully end this soon.. and then probably waste more time trying to find a better one.. but in my dreams i am about to go do work and be productive!
When did you sign up for myspace?
Oh so it was for myspace up there.. well i dont really have a myspace account.. but to look at someones profile i made an account like.. 2 years ago or something..
What do you do when you get mad?
Nothing really... just.. be mad..
Where were you saturday night at 12?
Geeze.. am i under arrest or something? Well normally, I wouldn't remember, but seeing as how I'm never awake at 12 AM and that was yesterday, I was sleeping in my bed.
Whats bothering you right now?
These stupid questions, the fact that im wasting time, the huge list of things hanging over my head including but not limited to: ACT, SAT, essays, projects, stat/calc hw, japan bowl work, getting a permit finally, exercising, cleaning my room, the huge ant infestation in my house, getting into college, paying for college..
stressed out yet?
Are facial piercings trashy?
Not necessarily slutty trashy, but yeah.. I wouldn't want to date a guy with anything more than a small nose piercing.
What color is your tongue?
...pink.....? why? what color is yours?
Is it possible that you could be pregnant right now?
Lolz, I wish..
When was the last time you had your hair cut?
A while ago..
Does anyone have a lock of your hair?
.. Surprisingly yes..
If you had to go without one food group for the rest of your life, which would it be?
Isn't this easy? I'd want it to be like.. fats/oils/sugars.. so I could be skinnier.. but i'd also want veggies to be outta there!
When you go to the zoo, what are you most excited about seeing?
.. animals? (I think you meant to ask what animal I'm most excited to see.. but since you didn't have the sense to ask this, I'm not going to answer.)
Who is your favorite talk show host?
That's a tough one.. it always shifts between Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert..
What makes you happy?
Not doing anything productive and not having to. Also, hanging with my friends on a good day. And smoking pot.. that's fun.
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
.. Oh god.. oh! Someone used my doink creation in their picture.. yes.. stfu, my life is miserable right now..
Do you like the person you are becoming?
Personality-wise? I'm the bomb.. even though I'm incredibly lazy.. motherfucker..
Do you miss anyone from your past?
Uh.. I guess.. not very much.. and the other person is also part of my present and future...
That's the end? Well, we had quite an adventure together, lilemogurl15.. I'm sorry I yelled at you :(
Ok.. let's face it, humans love to talk about themselves. People, even people who say they don't give a shit what others think, care about that stuff. Fact of life.. So even though I'll say I hate these things, I secretly really want to fill one out. Here goes!
Whats a fact about the last person you liked?
Well the last person I had a full on crush on (as opposed to just mild interest), that wasn't fictional was in 5th grade.. Fact about him? He had a weird last name.
Who was the last person you gave up on?
This is a vague question... Not really sure what that means... but let's just say that one person triggered me giving up on all people in general (as you may have noticed from a past emo post).
Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
Well few people are complete jerks.. but. . I don't think I've spoken to the jerkiest people I know today.
What did you do last night?
Your mom. But in all seriousness.. your mom.
Do you think relationships are even worth it?
If the alternative was practical (simply mating quickly like animals and then leaving), then no. However, we are part of the group of animals that has sex and raises the offspring.. so therefore, I do think relationships are "worth it" as they are programmed into our DNA.
If you could pack up and move would you?
Everyone can always pack up and move, and they all answer your question.. no. God.. these questions are stupid, maybe I should try another questionnaire.
Do your parents REALLY know you?
Who was this questionnaire written by? A 15-year-old emo kid?
Moreover, what do you define as "REALLY" knowing someone, lilemogurl15? My parents don't listen to me half the time and have no idea I've smoked pot twice and gotten drunk way more often than they know.. yet they raised me. Who is the "real" me? Is it who I perceive myself as or what others perceive me as? If it's who I perceive myself as, then nobody truly knows me. If it's what others perceive me as then they are a big part of the "others" who define who I am, and by definition, whatever they think of me is the "real" me.
When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Just because I don't remember doesn't mean I'm as emo as you.
What are you excited for?
On a small scale? Summer break or all the moments that are NOT what I'm not excited for and do not precede those moments closely either. Grand scale? Getting into my dream college, getting a dream job, getting married, accomplishing my purpose on the planet and helping out a little with the planet in the meantime.
Has anyone told you lately that they would always be there for you?
Hm.. I don't think anyone actually says that in real life unless they've been watching too many soap operas. (And don't try to make me emo by realizing the answer is no.. just because you're emo doesn't mean I have to be.)
What do you want right now?
To stop wasting my time answering stupid questionnaires like this and get working on the shitload of crap I have to do.
Are your parents divorced?
No, but I'm sure yours are, lilemogurl15.
Do you fall for people easily?
No.
Would you ever get a tattoo?
Probably not, as I'm smart. Not that tattoos are bad, but I know my taste would change and I would regret it.
What's your mood right now?
Irritation with a pinch of anxiety.
Did you enjoy your weekend?
It's still the weekend.. and no.
Last person you told a secret to?
Uh.. probably my friend.. whose name I do not wish to reveal.
Are you stubborn?
Shit yeah..
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
Is this a romance question or a general question? No, I have a family that I live with.. but yes, I don't have a boyfriend.
Are you listening to music right now?
Yeah. Aren't you going to ask me what song?
Who else is in the room with you?
Nobody I hope.. or else this questionnaire won't end up getting published... OMG!! A big red ant!!!
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
Jacket.. what a stupid question..
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Heaven? If such a thing existed..
How long can you go without your mobile phone?
Again, a stupid question.. I could go without it indefinitely as it is not required for me to live. However, it would inconvenience me if I didn't have it, so preferably for as short a time as possible.
Ever kissed someone else's girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope..
What's the worst time to say i love you?
When someone is having explosive diarrhea . .FUCK THE ANT'S ON MY DESK NOW.. or maybe when they're getting attacked by ants.. I don't know.. there's a lot of times when it would be bad.. Like when you're raping/killing them... well unless you're killing them and it's a tearful, movie-type scene...
Who was the last person in your room besides family?
Probably one of my friends..
What is one place you would love to visit right now?
Japan.. or if it's in general, as you didn't specify.. another planet or dimension or time.
Do you know anyone named Dan?
No... wtf..
Is there someone you know you should hate, but you can't?
Like.. hate hate? Like want them to die like Hitler? Or just regular ol' hate.. cuz if it's regular ol' hate.. then 2 out of 3 of my best friends.. and my parents..
Is there anyone you trust even though you shouldn't?
.. not really.. I generally don't trust people I know aren't trustworthy..
Are you afraid of falling in love?
No..
Have you had the chicken pox?
Yeah.. wtf.. is with these random questions.. in the middle of all these emo deep questions?
Are you a forgiving person?
I suppose.. in comparison to who? .. but in general.. .yeah i guess...
Are you talking to someone while doing this?
No.
Are you younger than 21?
Yeah, just like you, lilemogurl15.
Do you like winter?
I love what it does to my hair... not so much the whole.. coldness part..
How clean is your room?
Not very..
Do you have feelings for anyone?
OMFG.. yes.. I have feelings for you, lilemogurl15.. feelings of hatred.. yes! obviously I have feelings for people! I hate people, love people, am annoyed by people, etc. But, I'm sorry, lilemogurl15, I know I'm being harsh.. no, i'm not in love with anyone.
Is there anyone you need to tell something to?
wow, i take my last apology back.
Do you want to yell at the top of your lungs?
Not really.. that's more of an emo thing..
What do you think about people who get hair extensions?
dude.. wtf.. I've been trying to answer you seriously.. why don't you try to ask me serious questions?? I don't care about people with extensions!!
Are you named after a grandparent?
No!
Who's bed did you sleep in last?
Mine!
Do you like the color green?
It's ok!
How many hours did you sleep for last night?
like 8 or something..
Where was your default taken?
.. is this a fb question? if so.. at my house..
How do you feel about the last person that called you?
um... they're cool?
Are you someones first love?
Defining love in my way of defining it, no. Defining it in the stupid teenager way, yes.
Last place you smoked a cigarette?
I don't smoke... cigarettes...
Last time you received flowers?
like.. fuckin.. preschool. .. o wait no. .actually like last year or maybe the year before that.
Who were you with last Monday?
How the fuck should I know..
What are you doing tommorow?
Are you hitting on me?
Are you addicted to anything?
Stress.. or maybe it's addicted to me.. and any phases i am currently into.. such as watching some anime.. or playing some game.. or watching house..
Are you tired?
Yeah... ridiculously so..
What are you about to do?
Hopefully end this soon.. and then probably waste more time trying to find a better one.. but in my dreams i am about to go do work and be productive!
When did you sign up for myspace?
Oh so it was for myspace up there.. well i dont really have a myspace account.. but to look at someones profile i made an account like.. 2 years ago or something..
What do you do when you get mad?
Nothing really... just.. be mad..
Where were you saturday night at 12?
Geeze.. am i under arrest or something? Well normally, I wouldn't remember, but seeing as how I'm never awake at 12 AM and that was yesterday, I was sleeping in my bed.
Whats bothering you right now?
These stupid questions, the fact that im wasting time, the huge list of things hanging over my head including but not limited to: ACT, SAT, essays, projects, stat/calc hw, japan bowl work, getting a permit finally, exercising, cleaning my room, the huge ant infestation in my house, getting into college, paying for college..
stressed out yet?
Are facial piercings trashy?
Not necessarily slutty trashy, but yeah.. I wouldn't want to date a guy with anything more than a small nose piercing.
What color is your tongue?
...pink.....? why? what color is yours?
Is it possible that you could be pregnant right now?
Lolz, I wish..
When was the last time you had your hair cut?
A while ago..
Does anyone have a lock of your hair?
.. Surprisingly yes..
If you had to go without one food group for the rest of your life, which would it be?
Isn't this easy? I'd want it to be like.. fats/oils/sugars.. so I could be skinnier.. but i'd also want veggies to be outta there!
When you go to the zoo, what are you most excited about seeing?
.. animals? (I think you meant to ask what animal I'm most excited to see.. but since you didn't have the sense to ask this, I'm not going to answer.)
Who is your favorite talk show host?
That's a tough one.. it always shifts between Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert..
What makes you happy?
Not doing anything productive and not having to. Also, hanging with my friends on a good day. And smoking pot.. that's fun.
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
.. Oh god.. oh! Someone used my doink creation in their picture.. yes.. stfu, my life is miserable right now..
Do you like the person you are becoming?
Personality-wise? I'm the bomb.. even though I'm incredibly lazy.. motherfucker..
Do you miss anyone from your past?
Uh.. I guess.. not very much.. and the other person is also part of my present and future...
That's the end? Well, we had quite an adventure together, lilemogurl15.. I'm sorry I yelled at you :(
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Fucked Up Life
I haven't posted any updates because I've kept forgetting that I have no actual readers to my knowledge. I started this blog so I could rant about the injustices of this world, but of course this mostly happens when something is personally affecting me. Naturally I didn't feel like explaining my life story every time I was pissed the fuck off so I haven't posted in a while.
But I assure you, I have been pissed the fuck off.
So, dear non-existent reader, the following will probably make little sense to you, but hopefully you'll be able to keep up.. if not, then don't be sad.. you really shouldn't care about my life anyhow.
I'm going to start off by naming two of my character flaws. They are (but certainly are not limited to) absolutely loathing anybody who disagrees with me/being disagreed with and believing that I am the absolute wisest person on this planet. I may be using a little hyperbole on the latter–and since the former is pretty straightforward I'm not going to elaborate on that one–but really I think I'm the fucking shit. I'm only 16 fucking years old, and I think I am so incredibly genius, gifted with common sense and wisdom beyond my years. Now, I may be more intelligent than the average 16-year-old, but I seriously doubt that I'm as fucking smart as I think I am. This actually plays into the first character flaw I mentioned, as since I think this, I believe anyone I argue with MUST be wrong and my view MUST be right. Sometimes I question if everything I believe is wrong and if those idiots out there are actually right. Maybe God exists? Maybe Bush/McCain was the right choice? But I simply can't find any logical reason why this would be the case no matter how hard I try.
Regardless of everything I just wrote, I do believe I'm that incredibly wise. (Btw, I use the word wise instead of smart because some people may interpret smart as being book-smart and I am the first to admit I am not as book smart as many around me). And I just got into a fight with my mother. My mother. My senior. The one who gave birth to me. The one who changed my diapers and wiped away my slobber. Granted, this happens all the time, but how can I truly believe I'm smarter than her? Especially when I believe that time brings wisdom? She's 45. I'm 16. Yet I think she's handling this fight like a child. I offer to talk it out, to show her my point of view, but instead, she is a fucking coward and refuses to listen to a word I say (which happens to be the very reason I was mad at her in the first place). She says "well I can be mad too!" and goes off completely ignoring me like a 5-year-old. First, I'm mad for an actual reason, you're not. Second, I know the next step is to complain to my dad and possibly even cry (though I have never actually witnessed said crying and it has only been reported to me by my dad). How is that in ANY way mature??? You're going to guilt me out of being mad at you?? You're going to say "well daddy told you to stop being mad at me!!"??? How about you actually LISTEN to me and try to fucking comply or even compromise with my point of view?? You fucking coward.
O, and I promised I'd be all over the place and indecipherable with this and that may be so or may not be so, but I'm going to skip to another point. I hate teenagers who think they're the fucking shit (and please.. I am well aware I just said up above that I am a teenager who thinks I'm the fucking shit. But as I think I'm the fucking shit, I obviously do not belong to the category that "thinks" they're the fucking shit, as I am certain I "know" I'm the fucking shit and that it is a well-known fact.. at least by me..). I hate seeing them argue they're point as if they're so smart and great at arguing. When I see this I become infuriated with society because they argue so fucking textbook that its ridiculous. Its as though they have no mind of their own. They argue as though they're writing an argumentative essay for 5th period English (for 2 whole grades!). Then they think they're so great that they used some big words and long sentences to try to intimidate their opponent into thinking they're smart and know what the fuck they're talking about. Hell, even Bush sometimes uses big words.. and sometimes even successfully! Does that mean he's the shit? No! Get over yourselves you half-wit teenagers!
Except for me.
But I assure you, I have been pissed the fuck off.
So, dear non-existent reader, the following will probably make little sense to you, but hopefully you'll be able to keep up.. if not, then don't be sad.. you really shouldn't care about my life anyhow.
I'm going to start off by naming two of my character flaws. They are (but certainly are not limited to) absolutely loathing anybody who disagrees with me/being disagreed with and believing that I am the absolute wisest person on this planet. I may be using a little hyperbole on the latter–and since the former is pretty straightforward I'm not going to elaborate on that one–but really I think I'm the fucking shit. I'm only 16 fucking years old, and I think I am so incredibly genius, gifted with common sense and wisdom beyond my years. Now, I may be more intelligent than the average 16-year-old, but I seriously doubt that I'm as fucking smart as I think I am. This actually plays into the first character flaw I mentioned, as since I think this, I believe anyone I argue with MUST be wrong and my view MUST be right. Sometimes I question if everything I believe is wrong and if those idiots out there are actually right. Maybe God exists? Maybe Bush/McCain was the right choice? But I simply can't find any logical reason why this would be the case no matter how hard I try.
Regardless of everything I just wrote, I do believe I'm that incredibly wise. (Btw, I use the word wise instead of smart because some people may interpret smart as being book-smart and I am the first to admit I am not as book smart as many around me). And I just got into a fight with my mother. My mother. My senior. The one who gave birth to me. The one who changed my diapers and wiped away my slobber. Granted, this happens all the time, but how can I truly believe I'm smarter than her? Especially when I believe that time brings wisdom? She's 45. I'm 16. Yet I think she's handling this fight like a child. I offer to talk it out, to show her my point of view, but instead, she is a fucking coward and refuses to listen to a word I say (which happens to be the very reason I was mad at her in the first place). She says "well I can be mad too!" and goes off completely ignoring me like a 5-year-old. First, I'm mad for an actual reason, you're not. Second, I know the next step is to complain to my dad and possibly even cry (though I have never actually witnessed said crying and it has only been reported to me by my dad). How is that in ANY way mature??? You're going to guilt me out of being mad at you?? You're going to say "well daddy told you to stop being mad at me!!"??? How about you actually LISTEN to me and try to fucking comply or even compromise with my point of view?? You fucking coward.
O, and I promised I'd be all over the place and indecipherable with this and that may be so or may not be so, but I'm going to skip to another point. I hate teenagers who think they're the fucking shit (and please.. I am well aware I just said up above that I am a teenager who thinks I'm the fucking shit. But as I think I'm the fucking shit, I obviously do not belong to the category that "thinks" they're the fucking shit, as I am certain I "know" I'm the fucking shit and that it is a well-known fact.. at least by me..). I hate seeing them argue they're point as if they're so smart and great at arguing. When I see this I become infuriated with society because they argue so fucking textbook that its ridiculous. Its as though they have no mind of their own. They argue as though they're writing an argumentative essay for 5th period English (for 2 whole grades!). Then they think they're so great that they used some big words and long sentences to try to intimidate their opponent into thinking they're smart and know what the fuck they're talking about. Hell, even Bush sometimes uses big words.. and sometimes even successfully! Does that mean he's the shit? No! Get over yourselves you half-wit teenagers!
Except for me.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
People
I don't get it.. Ok I realize that my blogs haven't really been varied on topic, but most blogs aren't and I only post when I'm pissed at people so whatever.
First of all, I've got a pretty privileged life. I'm not rich as shit or anything but I live in a very nice neighborhood and away from most of the evil things that happen in the world. But every time I hear about something horrible–like how one girl plotted with her boyfriend to kill her mom so she could get money for a boob job–I start to feel really depressed and disgusted with society. I wonder why people can be so heartless.. and stupid. People are killing each other and themselves for ridiculous reasons.. Now I'm not one that's all like "all life is sacred!!" and shit.. but I don't think life should be treated so casually.. especially when I believe that this is all there is. I don't know.. I just can't comprehend it.. I would never kill someone.. I mean, maybe if they were trying to kill me.. but never like that!
Second, it's Thanksgiving, right? And Thanksgiving is a time for family, right? Well, I just can't believe that people don't change... ever. My brother has been the same cold-hearted bastard his whole life.. and every time I see him I hope that something will change.. but no.. the fact that my own brother can't be nice or even decent to me, and he's over 20, just goes to show that nobody changes, and we're all just gay.
Third, with my best friend gone, I only have two really close friends left, and one I simply hate. Maybe not hate, but I can't stand to be around him for long.. He's just changed.. and everything is just awful.
I feel alone and surrounded by assholes. Now what am I supposed to do?
I have to go eat turkey and awkwardly talk to some girl I barely know because my parents think we should be friends as we are "close" to the same age.
First of all, I've got a pretty privileged life. I'm not rich as shit or anything but I live in a very nice neighborhood and away from most of the evil things that happen in the world. But every time I hear about something horrible–like how one girl plotted with her boyfriend to kill her mom so she could get money for a boob job–I start to feel really depressed and disgusted with society. I wonder why people can be so heartless.. and stupid. People are killing each other and themselves for ridiculous reasons.. Now I'm not one that's all like "all life is sacred!!" and shit.. but I don't think life should be treated so casually.. especially when I believe that this is all there is. I don't know.. I just can't comprehend it.. I would never kill someone.. I mean, maybe if they were trying to kill me.. but never like that!
Second, it's Thanksgiving, right? And Thanksgiving is a time for family, right? Well, I just can't believe that people don't change... ever. My brother has been the same cold-hearted bastard his whole life.. and every time I see him I hope that something will change.. but no.. the fact that my own brother can't be nice or even decent to me, and he's over 20, just goes to show that nobody changes, and we're all just gay.
Third, with my best friend gone, I only have two really close friends left, and one I simply hate. Maybe not hate, but I can't stand to be around him for long.. He's just changed.. and everything is just awful.
I feel alone and surrounded by assholes. Now what am I supposed to do?
I have to go eat turkey and awkwardly talk to some girl I barely know because my parents think we should be friends as we are "close" to the same age.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Hope
Yeah, I know.. Lame title.. but whatever.
Soooo... guess who's president? Obama! God, I'm so happy! He did it! I have a mindset like, "Yes! Our problems are solved! Finally, everything will go back to how they were during Clinton." But I know.. everyone's expectations for him are like he's freaking Jesus. I know he can't solve things immediately, or maybe even at all. I just hope that he can make things good enough for there to be reason for everyone to re-elect him in four years. Hopefully, things can't get any worse under him, and it's all uphill from here.
In other, incredibly less important news, I hate blogger. I ran into problems the second I got an account. I still don't even know what the problems were caused by, or even what they were. I think I have a different account now.. and yes, I'm not sure. All I know is there are now two Bestiny Prattle blogs out there and one will probably never get updated. (Please.. a moment of silence for a dead blog..)
No transition here.. I'm just going to cut straight, and awkwardly, onto the next subject. It turns out I was right in my last post.. people do really suck. That amazing person I was supposed to meet? Stupid.. as usual.. Whatever, who needs people when I have a computer... and can live through a character I made up on WoW? (Lol I am just kidding people.. never even played the game). Who knows.. it may come to that.. The entire human race may just start hating social interaction soon and we will all just play WoW and there will be peace. (Haha.. ironic.. cuz.. get it? World of WARcraft? peace? hahahhaa!)
Soooo... guess who's president? Obama! God, I'm so happy! He did it! I have a mindset like, "Yes! Our problems are solved! Finally, everything will go back to how they were during Clinton." But I know.. everyone's expectations for him are like he's freaking Jesus. I know he can't solve things immediately, or maybe even at all. I just hope that he can make things good enough for there to be reason for everyone to re-elect him in four years. Hopefully, things can't get any worse under him, and it's all uphill from here.
In other, incredibly less important news, I hate blogger. I ran into problems the second I got an account. I still don't even know what the problems were caused by, or even what they were. I think I have a different account now.. and yes, I'm not sure. All I know is there are now two Bestiny Prattle blogs out there and one will probably never get updated. (Please.. a moment of silence for a dead blog..)
No transition here.. I'm just going to cut straight, and awkwardly, onto the next subject. It turns out I was right in my last post.. people do really suck. That amazing person I was supposed to meet? Stupid.. as usual.. Whatever, who needs people when I have a computer... and can live through a character I made up on WoW? (Lol I am just kidding people.. never even played the game). Who knows.. it may come to that.. The entire human race may just start hating social interaction soon and we will all just play WoW and there will be peace. (Haha.. ironic.. cuz.. get it? World of WARcraft? peace? hahahhaa!)
Disappointment
So.. I'm actually doing another one.. probably going to be short due to the time, but I don't think I do short very well.
So anyways, today I'm going to complain about how all humans suck. I hate how I always make a friend that seems really cool at first and then they always turn out to be annoying or bad in some major way. Why are humans so imperfect? Whoever said that needs to be a rule? Whoever said that all humans have to suck?
Now what am I supposed to do.. I was so excited with the prospect of a new person who actually didn't seem like an ass, but they're all asses. I'm actually being introduced to another someone who seems really amazing.. but now I know there's no use in hoping they turn out as amazing as they seem. People just suck. Period.
I don't really see a point or an ending or some clever way to close this entry.. It's just a sad fact that I've realized, and I don't know what to draw from this experience. "Hope", "Change", it's all bullshit. I see no hope, and people don't change unless it's for the worse.
So anyways, today I'm going to complain about how all humans suck. I hate how I always make a friend that seems really cool at first and then they always turn out to be annoying or bad in some major way. Why are humans so imperfect? Whoever said that needs to be a rule? Whoever said that all humans have to suck?
Now what am I supposed to do.. I was so excited with the prospect of a new person who actually didn't seem like an ass, but they're all asses. I'm actually being introduced to another someone who seems really amazing.. but now I know there's no use in hoping they turn out as amazing as they seem. People just suck. Period.
I don't really see a point or an ending or some clever way to close this entry.. It's just a sad fact that I've realized, and I don't know what to draw from this experience. "Hope", "Change", it's all bullshit. I see no hope, and people don't change unless it's for the worse.
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